I’m beginning to think that some wire in my life has gotten crossed with a couple others. Not only did I accidentally delete 7 of my friends while I was trying to rearrange them, I feel worse because I haven’t had a chance to find them and add them again.

I haven’t posted anywhere since I left Florida, so let’s play a little catch up?

We made the long drive up to NC last Saturday. We had stopped at South of the Boarder (tourist trap) to stretch our legs and tank up, and that’s when I got the call from my aunt. She said that there’d been a death in my Dad’s family and that my parents and brother, who are in Delaware, were already driving down to meet us in Raleigh. They stayed until Tuesday and even though it was a funeral that brought them down I was happy to see them, because I only get to see them a couple times a year. :/

This morning I was woken up by the phone – it’s my fault for setting the ringer on high. It was my Mom calling us to say that there’s been another death in my Dad’s family. I’m really feeling bad for him. I don’t know if they’re are coming down again, but if they do they’ll get in late tonight. So there’s probably going to be more craziness in my recently settled Aunt’s house.

I know I owe some people a few things. They are first on my list of things to do tomorrow. I just have to finish my 25 page paper by tonight, and hopefully make it to an important meeting by 6:30.

Really, what happened to my life? I thought things would settle down once I got here.

So, things are going a little better, but only a little. Credits finally transfered completely and everything is all go for my graduation. Yay. Now I’ve just got to pass my three summer classes and somehow make it to August 8th. My foot is doing better; still gets sore, but I don’t have to wear my boot. Other than that, meh….I enjoy staying with Roger, my uncle. It’s a lot of fun, but I still feel bad about my stuff everywhere. We tried to put as much as we could in storage, but some stuff we either couldn’t put in there because it was not allowed, like my art stuff (chemicals, and combustables), or it was expensive/irreplaceable, like my guitars, the electronics, our computers. And also because of the painting, EVERYTHING is just EVERYWHERE. I’ll be glad when the painters are done and gone, and I can clean and organize everything so it’s neat. Well, atleast until the carpet guys come next week.

Susan and Al get in early Friday morning, so I’m going to try and have everything clean by Thursday night. That should be fun. I’ve got a 20 page  due tomorrow, and a 10 page due next Thursday, Roger’s Going Away party next Friday, and Orlando next weekend. Oh, and three of our friends will be leaving to move to Portland that weekend too. So because of everything that’s going on, there’s a good chance that I won’t get a chance to see them before they leave. So that’s a major suckage there. :(

It’s a really sad but happy time in my life at the moment. Happy because Josh and I are really going to start our lives together in a new town, in our first place together. But sad because all my friends are going their seperate ways, going to start their own lives.  I guess I’m sad that not only will I not see them as often, but Josh and I are some of the last to go. It’s gotten to the point where I feel like I’m trapped in Tampa with no friends to talk to or hang with. I go out to school and come straight home. Frankly, that’s not that great for me. Not that I don’t have a million things I could do besides going out with friends, but it’d be nice to do something different for a change.

I haven’t been sleeping well. My headaches and migrains are coming back. I feel sick and just tired. I’m completely stressed out by school and the moving, and not knowing if Josh will get the job he wants, even if one of us will have a job at all when we move up to NC. I feel myself slipping back into depression again and I’m tiring really hard not to. I’ve been thinking about that alot, and I’ve been tiring to take breaks from my work and do something that makes me feel better. Watching anime, or working on my manuscript. Though, really I think it’s just lack of socialization. I know I have Josh, and I really depend on him, love him. But I can tell that even he is feeling restless here. At least he has Gary and Alan, and the rest of his friends at the EWB.

I’ve got to get back to my lovely 20pg paper that’s due tomorrow. I hope I can finish it in time. I might stop at the store on the way home and pick up supplies for an all nighter.

Let’s see, I’ll summarize:

• Hurt foot over the weekend while moving, wearing my boot for the next two weeks for good measure, though if it gets worse, I’ll probably need to go get X-rays. That’ll be a joy.
• Credits still haven’t transfered from HCC. Who knows what’s taking so long. Bad news is if they don’t transfer, I have to take the classes. Which, in turn, means I can’t graduate in August.
• Midterm in Chinese Foreign Policy tomorrow. ‘Not ready’ is an extreme understatement.
• 15 page midterm take home exam due Wednesday in Senior Seminar. Haven’t started. There doesn’t seem to be enough time in the day.
• Also on Wednesday, Professor of Senior Seminar wants us to present our papers (4-7 min on topic, aim, and sources). No one in the class is ready, myself included.
• Realized today that my 20 page paper is due two weeks from Wednesday. Like I didn’t have enough on my plate.
• Have to finish moving stuff to storage and cleaning old apartment by Saturday.
• Another huge chunk of my close friends may be moving away in two weeks. This time to the other side of the country. I’m beginning to feel very lonely here in Tampa. I know I’ll always have Josh, but it’s important for us to have our own friends to. To hang out with, to get away with, so that we don’t go crazy.
• Slight chance I may have to postpone wedding due to the possibility of my dad being deployed at the time of it. That one sucks. It’s a very, very slight chance, but it still sucks.

Sorry about the rant, it helped a little though.

And here’s the project that that’s been eating up my time lately. After finals I’m going to sub it, so for those of you who don’t speak Japanese can understand what’s being said. I also want to make a Making of Video, just because we had some awesome outtakes! And the best one wasn’t even caught on film! XD